Second Thoughts After Divorce

Rose’s POV

In that moment, seeing the pain and fury written across his face – I wanted the ground to open up from beneath me to swallow me whole. The guilt Instantly consumed me, knowing that he had a right to know about this just as much as I had… yet I chose not to tell him….

The tears instantly streamed down my face, like a water park experiencing a massive leak as Ashton looked conflicted on what to do next witnessing my breakdown.

He knows now… about the baby… and I couldn’t yet gauge how he felt about it either! Was he happy? Imitated? Furious? Excited? Who knows…

led to t–tell you! Then my w–wolf came back and distracted me!” I sob loudly, and with that, Ashton seems to snap out of his trance and makes

“L… I tried

a move towards me…

He climbs on to the free space on my hospital bed, moving as close to me as he can get before instantly wrapping his arms around me and pulling me

In to his chest.

I breathe heavily before a loud sob comes out next, as he rubs large circles on my back in an attempt to calm me down…..

“Shhh… why are you this upset about it? Do you not feel ready? You need to tell me the truth here Rose or I won’t be able to help, do you not want to be a Mother yet? You’ve been through a lot, it’s ok. He whispers, trying to figure out my extreme emotions as I shake my head in his hold and continue

to cry.

Maybe this was my breaking point? With all of my built up emotion and

d trauma bulldozing its way to the surface?

It was a lot to process, and my body and mind was tired… but I knew that deep down I wanted a family, a proper one of my own – regardless of if it had came way sooner than expected.

This is what I had always dreamed of, literally a picture perfect mate and a loving family, so I would be a fool to deny the opportunity now!

“N–No! I was scared that y–you wouldn’t be ready! I was nervous to s–say it because I feared the rejection!” I cry out to him, feeling somewhat better that he had chosen to comfort me in this moment as opposed to rejecting me like I had imagined he would amongst the many other scenarios I had created in head.

my

He seems to think on my words for a moment, as my breathing comes out in laboured pants- fully overwhelmed and guilty for not telling him when I first had the chance.

“Of course I want the baby! What kind of fucking question is that to even ask me Rose?! You know that I want a family with you, I told you that way before I even mated with you… this choice is fully yours!” He hushes me, ensuring that I listen to each and every word that he was saying.

“Y–Yeah I know that… I just thought after what happened… it was maybe t–too soon for you! You are overworked and exhausted after dealing with everything that happened – I was scared that this was just too m–much for you to take on!” I sniffle, clinging to him for sheer hope and fear that he would ever decide to let me go.

He sighs loudly, as I continue to soak his shirt in my tears and pray to be accepted by him…..

“I’m the Alpha for a reason sweetheart! I don’t need you to pity me or to worry about what I can and can’t handle. It’s my job to take care of you no matter what the circumstances are! You are disrespecting me by questioning my ability to become a father – I am not weak!” He scolds me, with a more gentle tone however he still remains direct.

He’s right… I was pitying him when he didn’t want to be pitied and as an Alpha, that was probably the biggest insult I could ever give him. Questioning his ability to handle a haby… his own baby…

He thrives on leading and taking control so why do I worry over his ability to become a strong father? He will make a great Father… there was no questions about that!

“I’m s–sorry! I know you’ll be a great Dad that’s not what I feared… I worried that it was just coming at the wrong time… with too much going on at once for you, I was scared it would be a b–burden to you on top of everything else you now have to work to f–fix.” I admit my thoughts, as I glance up to meet his eyes for the first time as he gives me a gentle look and strokes my hair.

“I was worried about the same thing when the nurse first told me! I didn’t want it to be too much for you after everything that happened. That w only concern…but all of that aside Hose, I do want the baby, and I want you forever as long as that’s what you want.” He concludes, as the words seem to plaster over the wounds and insecurities I was feeling

He wants the baby…

He wants me regardless…

“I tried to tell you when you gigot back… and then Aurora resurfaced and sort of… stole the light… then you thought that was the news, and after that, I struggled to get the words out… I began to overthink it and worry! I was just t–talking with Lydia about how to tell you when you woke up but I was. too late!” I try to explain what happened on my side, needing him to know that I wouldn’t dare to keep something so important from him for long

His eyes search mine as they return to their regular shade of green as he calms down and so do I – sniffling and wiping my face with the sides of my hands.

“I will admit that I didn’t expect to hear that news today, not from the nurse who told me so casually either! But now I know, and you have to let me handle shit from here, ok? I’ll be by your side every step of the way Rose… I love you.” Ashton tells me, shifting to fully face me showing that he meant each and every word

I look into his eyes, seeing the exhaustion that surrounds them, before finding a glimpse of hope amongst the uncertainty.

I trust him, and I know he will do what’s right for us both moving forward.

“I love you too Ash… I just p–panicked… I should have told you sooner and I’m sorry! I want nothing more than to start a family… with you!” I admit, as he nods his head and swipes away the last tear as it trickles down my cheek.

“I understand – don’t apologise. It’s done now and we will face it, together.” He nods firmly, leaning forward to kiss me as I close my eyes and enjoy the tender moment between us – allowing for him to be my rock once again.

I don’t know what I would do without this man in my life, I say it every single day since meeting him. He was one of a kind…

“Alpha? Are you two ready for the tests? W

We break apart, hearing the gentle knock on the door before the handle is twisted and opened to reveal the nurse from before whose face looked a little flustered and guilty.

Ashton turns to me, his eyes searching my features as 1 chew my lip and nod a little to give my consent.

“Yeah she’s ready, do what you need to.” Ashton calls her in to the room fully–moving from his spot on the bed as my heart longs for him to remain this close to me forever.

Instead though, he moves to my side–taking my hand in his as he sinks in to the chair.

“Ashton…m–maybe you should still go get some rest? I’ll be fine on my own for this part?” 1 sniffle, watching the nurse set up the appropriate machines around us.

“Nah there’s no fucking way I’m resting now! I want to be here for every single part- big or small!” He states firmly, as I nod in understanding.

Even if he wanted to sleep I don’t think he would allow himself to – not with so much happening around him.

But he will need to rest at some point, before he runs himself completely in to the ground! Maybe after this, we can have a Together? All content © N/.ôvel/Dr/ama.Org.

I think we both need that…