My Emotionless Goddess

Lucia had this unsettling feeling that something was up with Ezekiel but she couldn’t say what exactly. How did she know? His frequent out of mind moments. She had caught him staring at her with pity filled eyes. Sometimes, his expressions would spell sorry. She couldn’t quite understand why he looked sorry towards her.

Pushing those thoughts at the back of her mind, she decided to go prepare something for him to eat once he woke up. He had been the one taking care of her all these days so while he rested, she figured out she should return the favour. Another reason was because she had noticed that his body was declining and his appetite poor. These days, he hardly eats anything and would always say he’s full. That was alarming according to Lucia

She cooked his favourite chicken rice and veggies. She didn’t forget to prepare pumpkin soup which was known for increasing appetite.

Evening came and Kiel had slept for six good hours, something that added more to Lucia’s suspicion. Despite how tired he was, Kiel would sleep for a maximum of four hours at night and two hours during the day which of course was very rare. Sleeping for six hours definitely spelt red alerts. But what could be the problem? Lucia pondered but came up with nothing.Còntens bel0ngs to Nô(v)elDr/a/ma.Org

Lucia walked upstairs to wake him up to eat his supper. She walked to their room and heard sniffing sounds coming from the sleeping Man. She was alarmed and rushed to his side only to realise that he was weeping in his dreams. Lucia felt her heart constrict in pain as if someone stabbed her mercilessly. For a strong man like Kiel to release his emotions in his dreams, the matter must be weighing heavily on him.

Sitting by the edge of the bed, she started patting him on how a mother pats a child and soon enough he relaxed and stopped sobbing. Figuring out that this wasn’t the best of times to wake him up, Lucia went to the bathroom to clean herself. She felt mentally exhausted so she decided to soak in the bathtub.

Even while soaking, all her thoughts lingered on Ezekiel. She could feel in every nerve that something was definitely wrong with Ezekiel but she couldn’t ask him directly. That would be a blatant disrespect to his personal space. Just because they were engaged, that did not give her the right to question him. She respected him and that respect meant that she could wait until he was willing to tell her whatever was troubling him.

After soaking for about thirty minutes, she emerged from the bathroom with a bathrobe tied securely around her body while holding a towel which she was using to dry her hair.

Her eyes involuntarily travelled to the bed and she saw that Ezekiel was already awake. He was sitting on the edge of the bed and staring directly at her with lust filled eyes. Seeing him looking at her so passionately aroused something in her. It had been weeks since they were intimate with each other and she wanted to feel him unite with her.

Walking straight to him, she untied the robe and let it slip past her body and land on the floor. She watched as Ezekiel swallowed heavily while his Adams apple bobbed up and down. She could tell he wanted her as much as she wanted him. Walking towards him, Lucia made sure to sway her hips which she wasn’t sure were noticeable anymore due to her bulging belly.

She sat on him making sure her sex aligned with his bulging manhood before they started grinding him, earning a sexy throaty moan from the man. Ezekiel was losing it after the temptress started doing what was Best in, seducing him. He blamed his resolve which seemed to crumble to smithereens Every time Lucia started to tease him sexually. Sometimes, she didn’t need to do anything, even her mere existence was a seduction on its own.

” Honey, it’s been a long time since we last made love.” She whispered in his ears, licking softly the place below his ears. She was an expert in finding all his sensitive parts of his body and that was her favourite.

Ezekiel drowned in euphoria. Her little actions were enough to send him to the edge. ” I want to feel you deep inside me as I milk you to the last drop.” She was an expert in talking dirty and that did nothing to help, it only fanned the flames of desire in him leaving him in her Mercy.

Lucia didn’t get any reply from him and that made her frustrated. In the past whenever they met, Ezekiel would make love to her until she lost count of how many times came in a night. That happened until she got pregnant. For some reasons known to her, he started avoiding their intimacy in the name of the first trimester was risky, she understood and let it pass. But now she was in her second trimester and sex was safe so why was he avoiding making love to her as frequently as before? Even when they finally did it, he would stop after the second round leaving her hanging.

As a woman, she started to be insecure about her body and ability to satisfy her man. She had even at some point started thinking whether Kiel was keeping another woman and that’s why he was tired of her. But she immediately dismissed that stupid thought. Kiel was a man who believed in one woman. He was a faithful Man and wouldn’t try to cheat on her.

He had shown her from time to time how much he meant to him and treated her as a Queen, his Queen.

” Don’t you want to make love to me? Don’t I excite you anymore? She finally found the courage to ask the question that had been pondering in her mind.

” What are you talking about? Why would you even think that?” Kiel was utterly astounded by her train of thoughts. Is that what she has been thinking about lately? If that is so , didn’t he get misunderstood and his actions misinterpreted?

” I don’t know but you’ve changed. Our sex life has also become inactive. You would sleep or just ignore me whenever I give you hints of wanting to be intimate with you.” Lucia replied. She was the one to face a problem head-on. She never appreciated beating around the bush as much as she never liked misunderstanding others.

” You are thinking too much. I have just been occupied lately. Forgive my ignorance.” Ezekiel said, kissing her lips passionately. That night, they made love like olden times. Reminiscing how it was when they met. The two bodies tangled under sheets, baring their love to each other. Dinner was long forgotten. For that night, Lucia forgot all about her worries, insecurities and fears. Ezekiel proved to her over and over again that no other woman was able to make him feel what she made him feel. He loved her without restraint, clearing her doubts of being unattractive. He made her feel special.

Indulging in her warmth and love, he forgot about the bitter Truth of his life and the painful reality awaiting him in three months’ time. Lucia finally fell asleep in the wee hours due to exhaustion. Ezekiel gazed at her lovingly and tears streamed down his cheeks. He didn’t want to die, not yet. He was too young to die. He still wanted to watch his woman walk down the aisle dressed in White coming to him. He still wanted to hear his woman say yes I do to him as he slid a ring on her finger. He wanted to accompany her during the labour period as they welcomed their child together. He wanted to watch as his child took every step of life with her by his side but that was now impossible. It was a dream. A beautiful dream that will never become a reality.