73) Was it really me?
73) Was it really me?
Authors pov
"I hurt her because of misunderstandings which you create between us... She doesn't remember me at
all... She doesn't remember how much she loved me and it's hurting me... It's your fault, it's all your
fault..."
Xavier said glaring at him.
"But I will wait... I will wait till she remembers me and then she will kill you by herself... She deserve this
honour...."
Sarah saw Xavier standing up and she rushed back to their bedroom. She locked herself in the
washroom.
"What is this?... I am that girl... Then why I can't remember anything. Why Xavier wasn't familiar at all.
Why I have no idea about the important part of my life... Where are those years..."
She splashed cold water on her face.
"Why Xavier isn't telling me about it... Is that why he divorced me like that. Yes! He humiliated me for
that... He was taking Revenge..."
She grabbed her throbbing head as all created chaos.
"May be he was right to do that and I deserved it... I don't know how much I have hurt him... May be it
was my karma..."
Wiping her bleeding nose she stripped under the shower.
"Why he is not telling me anything... Does he know that I don't remember anything..."
She heard the door opening and Xavier entered the washroom. He knew that she was inside and still
entered. His eyes roamed on her body. She has lose weight, he also noticed the stretch marks on her
belly which she got after giving birth to Skyler. But it didn't make any difference, she was beautiful for
him, more than before.
Xavier stripped and stood behind her under the cold shower.
'was he really my boyfriend... How did we met. What happened at that time?'
She thought.
"Can I ask you something?..."
She asked.
"Anything"
He replied running his hands through his hair.
"Ace once told me that you were in love with one girl... Is it true?"
She questioned tried to know what's going on in mind right now. She wanted to know everything but
this time all by herself.
People has always manipulate her and she wasn't trusting anyone anymore, they might alter the
information.
Xavier looked at her and slightly frowned trying to judge her, thinking why she has brought up this topic.
"Hmm... It's true..."
Sarah gulped hesitating if she could ask further. She felt him coming closer as his front touched her
back.
"Why you two broke up?... Do you still love her?"
"She had reasons... And yes, I still love her..."
He got the hint that she has heard his conversation with Peter. Guards told him that Sarah was there.
He decided to answer her questions honestly and let her find out by herself so it might not create too
much pressure on her mind.
"Then why did you let her go"
She mumbled.
Xavier gently rested her head back on his chest.
"Because I couldn't understand her... I couldn't understand that she doesn't want to leave me, that she
is forced by her father... I couldn't protect her due to lack of communication and big misunderstanding...
I believed her every word as I used to do, I thought she doesn't want me anymore. I never considered
myself worthy of her love..."
Sarah felt her heart squeezing in her chest.
"Do you regret leaving her?"
"More than anyone can ever imagine... It was biggest mistake of my life..."
He answered.
"Who is she?"
She asked as her eyes turned glossy. Somewhere she was thinking that it's not her. She must have
heard wrong.
Xavier gently turned her around.
"You know who is it"
He said looking straight in her eyes.
Sarah's lips trembled as she looked at him.
"I can't remember anything... I don't know.... It's blank..."
"I know... And it's fine..."
He cupped her cheek and wiped her bleeding nose.
"Why me?... Why it always happens to me?"
Sob erupted from her throat.
Xavier pulled her in a hug and gently rubbed her back.
"You are safe now... Don't worry about it... Everything will be fine..."
Sarah tilted her head up and looked at him.
"Was it really me?... I was your girlfriend!"
Xavier smiled.
"Yes it was you... It was always you Sarah, Only you... No one can take your place..."
Sarah closed her eyes and let the tears slide.
"I am sorry..."
She hugged him tightly.
"You don't have to be... It wasn't your fault..."
Xavier kissed her forehead and sighed in relief. Finally she knows the truth. It will help her to forgive
him and my be they can live a happy life.
"I want to meet William... He must know everything..."
Sarah said breaking the hug.
Xavier sighed and turned of the shower.
"William is no more... He died when you left. Before that he came here and told me everything which
happened with you, with us... He was feeling guilty for hiding everything from you."
He wrapped a robe around her.
"Do you still hate me for that?... For breaking your heart"
She asked.
"That's not important... The thing is do you hate me? Have you forgotten me after learning this?..."
He asked wrapping a towel around his waist and Sarah didn't answered.
She was still confused about everything, how can she come to the conclusion without knowing the
whole truth.
"I know you still have doubts and it's normal. I can understand that you need time... I don't want to
pressurise you for anything, I can wait... But before coming to the conclusion for once think yourself in
my place... What you would have done?... Would you have taken the revenge just like me or I was the
one who did that mistake..."
He said looking straight in her eyes and she can sense the sadness in those grey ocean.
"I wouldn't have done that..."
She replied and Xavier smiled bitterly.
"I am ready to take any punishment you want to give me... But not before you remember everything. Content from NôvelDr(a)ma.Org.
We can decide after that..."
He declared.
"For now, wear something black and get ready for funeral..."
Sarah frowned.
"Funeral?"
"Your sister Natasha died last night at that club in bomb blast..."
He sighed.